Run the dishwasher twice

 Run the dishwasher twice

Don’t get hung up on arbitrary rules that make you unable to do something because it supposed to be done in a particular way. Do you whatever it takes to get through the day and do whatever it takes to make it possible to do the things you want to do. If you can’t bring yourself to stand up to shower, and so are going around dirty but you want to be clean and it would make you feel better to be clean then shower sitting on the ground. If you can’t bring yourself to go on a date because you have so much baggage in your life that you have to explain too much on the first date so you just don’t go at all, then only talk about the weather Or pop music. You don’t have to give him your life story on your first date. Don’t Build up huge walls or barriers to doing small things or things that will bring you joy find small ways to do the things that will bring you joy. It might help to pick to yourself telling a therapist your problem and seeing what they say. You wouldn’t go to a therapist because you can’t bring yourself to load the dishwasher or shower but imagine one in your head and say to them I can’t shower and then imagine them solve that problem for you then my hand you a sponge and say never mind wash with this run it forget about the fact you haven’t got any dishwasher tablets they might say you could always eat something small if you can’t manage a whole meal.